The beginning of a new world

...I call this the beginning of a new world, as this was something I had never anticipated. I always wanted to be a mom. Of course, there was a selfish motive, but then there was a greater need to create a being which was a part of me!

And there I was with a positive home pregnancy test. I was also scared, as just a few months back I had a missed abortion. Things had changed ever since, and if it wasn't for that experience, I wouldn't have been so apprehensive of this wonderful journey. At that very moment I had decided, I would'nt see the radiologist ever - I was definitely not prepared to hear that 'there is no heart beat'. But then I had to. So, after almost over a month-and-a-half of haggling with my heart, I finally gathered guts. This time around I was lucky and I say so, as apparently, 25 percent of women go through this phenomenon which is supposedly nature's way of not going ahead with something that is not perfect.

Nevertheless, my joy knew no boundries. I was ecstatic. It was the best birthday gift I had ever received or would ever. That's when I made up my mind, that come what may, I will ensure that I have it my way. And I did. Today, when I look at my little princess, I still go back to the moment when I saw her first movement - I had almost missed a heartbeat. Frankly, I would live a thousand lives to experience every bit of the journey. But yes, you have to prepared for everything that comes along with it. It may sound easy but its not till you experience it. And yet, it leaves a mark on you forever!